Monthly Archives: September 2009

Circle Game*

Oh my. Get the tissue ready. Be sure to listen through at least one chorus, it will knock you out. (via my friend James)

Finding home* plus a Mondo Beyondo announcement*

Self-portrait, Mendocino, CA,Canon Digital Rebel XSi

I had a dream last night that stuck with me all day… It was simple really. I was given the gift of a pair of really beautiful slippers. They were furry and cozy and you could wear them inside but the sole was sturdy enough to wear outside as well. The creator of the slippers filled them with the promise of the wearer’s deepest wish coming true.

When I looked inside mine there was one word embroidered in red thread: Home.

As our first session of Mondo Beyondo comes to a close this week (it was outrageously wonderful) I am left with the most distilled sense of my own dreams. Although my list was long and full of wonderful things, the dreams that keep floating to the surface are all about finding a new house where we feel inspired and happy, feeling in balance between work and enjoying Ben, and just generally feeling connected to my family. Home.

Summer Giveaway: A space in Leonie’s Goddess School

As part of our Mondo Beyondo course, we suggest doing something we call a clearing. It is a way to create space in your life (both physically and mentally) for new dreams to find their way in. Clearings are such a powerful step to take, especially for those dreams that have no clear path, no easy action steps to take. In the spirit of the clearing, I have decided to do a long-awaited garage sale tomorrow morning. (If you’re in Berkeley, come on by!)

The fabulous Leonie Allen is conducting a series of e-courses in her Goddess School. One of the courses is about just this: Six weeks of Divine Decluttering. Hallelujah! You can read more about her delightful e-courses here.

And did I mention one lucky person will win a spot in one of her e-courses?

Giveaway Guidelines:
– You have until 9PM PST on Sunday, September 20th to enter this giveaway.
– Just make a comment ON THIS POST to enter.
– This is a random drawing
– One entry per person, please. (Just push “post” ONCE and wait a few seconds. The comment should appear)

Parking Day is today!

last year at Parking Day, SF,Canon Digital Rebel XSi

It’s Parking Day! One of the happiest days of the year! Look for parks in parking spaces in your city.. :)

little boy Ben

“When I grow up I want to be a little boy.” ~Joseph Heller, Something Happened, 1974

birds on a wire

Birds on the Wires from Jarbas Agnelli on Vimeo.

This video blew me away… This is his story:

“Reading a newspaper, I saw a picture of birds on the electric wires. I cut out the photo and decided to make a song, using the exact location of the birds as notes (no Photoshop edit). I knew it wasn’t the most original idea in the universe. I was just curious to hear what melody the birds were creating.”

on having it all*

Blaine and Ben playing music,Canon Digital Rebel XSi

We spent the weekend in Mendocino where our friends bought some land. It is incredibly beautiful there, just a cabin, acres of rolling hills, a pond, fruit trees and incredibly beautiful light. It was such a stark contrast to how we live our lives at home, going from task to task, creative work to housework, to caring for Ben to more work. There is a myth about working for yourself, that somehow your time is all your own and you can be found eating bon bons on your way to yoga class.

The truth is that your work life is much more flexible and the boundaries can be blurred. At best, this means that your work life and your personal life are so integrated that you can feel like you are never working. (You can actually catch me on occasion eating bon bons on the way to yoga class) At worst though, you can feel like you are always working… and that there are no breaks and no natural separations between you and all of your responsibilities. Most of the time, I am feeling grateful about the flexibility of my day and thrive on my work, but by personality I am pretty much always in doing mode.

And so it took me a while to wrap my head around the weekend. But what are we going to do there? I kept asking Matt. I don’t know, he said. Hang out, play music? I don’t know… I was only satisfied when I realized there was a beautiful redwood grove where we could hike. Turns out I don’t know how to just hang out and relax. :)

Ben, Mendocino, CA,Canon Digital Rebel XSi

This past week we have been reeling from all sorts of change. Ben started preschool! which is incredibly exciting and also a huge adjustment for us. We have never had to get out of the house at a specific time with him and be organized about his meals and have his clothing labeled and all of that… (I am also noticing how self-conscious I am about what I put in his lunchbox and all of the odd things he eats. My wanting to be perceived as a good mother stuff is kicking in hard.)

I was wondering why I was having a little meltdown today until I talked to a friend who put it all in perspective. “Ben just started preschool, you let go of the nanny, he stopped sleeping through the night, he stopped napping, you put him in a toddler bed for the first time last night and you are wondering why you are having a meltdown?”

A few people asked me recently about balancing work life and motherhood. The truth is that I have to let go a lot. I have to let go of the house being in order, the dishes being done, dinner being made. I have to let go of doing anything perfectly and settle for good enough. I have to let go of making plans to allow for what shows up (inevitably) in the moment.

I have been living with the belief that I can probably have everything I want, just not everything at the same time. Right now, I am choosing my creative work with Mondo Beyondo and time with family over most anything else. This means that we eat a lot of macaroni, takeout thai food and drink a lot of coffee around here. Our house isn’t grand or exactly how we want it, but we live next door to a park and we spend a lot of time outside. In the end, I want to know that I didn’t miss this time with Ben. I also want a rich creative life, to do work I love, and to enjoy how things are right now.

I suppose that’s my version of having it all right now. Or maybe I need to add personal chef and house cleaner to my Mondo Beyondo list. :)

mind on fire*

Haystack rock, Cannon Beach, OR, Canon Digital Rebel XSi

Certain ideas just light your mind on fire… PARK(ing) Day is one of those ideas.
This video (the guy who walked across China for a year and shot a time lapse video of his hair growing) did it for me today.
– And then there is Indra’s Cloud, a raft made of water bottles that has me totally enchanted.
– This video of a project that Whitney Ferre did in her community. She has my mind buzzing with so many ideas now… Thank you Whitney!
– And I loved this article I read on Chris Guillebeau’s site: Moving to Paris without quitting my day job: A Lesson in becoming a Nonconformist

And the winner of the Parking Day t-shirt is Emma who said, “Love it! The shirts are great, the concept and message — Amazing!”

For those of you who didn’t win, we love you! and you can still order your very own Parking Day shirt. Just click here. (Keep in mind these are limited edition and will sell out soon!)